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Part of Me Still Believes…

January 9, 2010 Leave a comment

Getting to know you is one of the most memorable moments of my life. You reminded me of someone I knew, really loved and care for. I just can’t help but to wonder why you are alike in many, many, many ways.

Old memories keep on creeping in. The same conversations, the same arguments, the same reactions from you. Those very same words, you once said.

The difference now is… It is not coming from you, but another who is just like you. Should I expect the same outcome, the same ending – all the heartaches, heartbreaks?

Crossroad.

I know that I’m still the same person. My flaws stick on me and I can’t seem to shake it off. That is why I’m afraid I’m gonna drive you away. Never wanted the same ending on repeat. I don’t wanna hurt you. Never.

I found someone to fill your shoes. But I don’t know why I’m holding back.

Let me go.

I don’t wanna dream about all the things that never were.

Let’s pretend that I’ve moved on.

I Decide

October 29, 2009 Leave a comment

Don’t think that you can tell me what to think
I’m the one who knows what’s good for me
And I’m stating my independence
Gonna take the road I’m gonna take
And I’m gonna make my own mistakes
It’s my life!


Don’t think you’re ever gonna hold me down
Couldn’t do it then, can’t do it now
I’m kicking down all defenses
Gonna do it all and do too much
And if I mess the whole thing up, it’s my right!


I decide.


Period.

I Wanna Say It

October 15, 2009 Leave a comment

I wish I could have told you

The things I kept inside

But now I guess it’s just too late

So many things remind me of you

I hope that you can hear me

 

I never meant to start a war

You know I never wanna hurt you

Don’t even know what I’m fighting for

You know I’ll fight for you but

How can I fight for someone who isn’t even there?

 

I guess there are certain things in life that you badly wanna say, but it’s not right…not appropriate. And it pains you deep down cos you are dying to say it.

 

It’s like constipation?

Then I guess I need laxatives now.

 

want need to go to the gym!

Empty

September 28, 2009 Leave a comment

I guess Lit was fine. Mdm Chitra didn’t flare up like how I thought she would. Thank God. I got a pretty decent mark for Earnest essay. Pheww! Need to work on the analysis though, seriously. 2 pages is just not enough. Considering the fact that I enlarged my handwriting on purpose just to fill the 2 damn pages, my “2 pages” is just not enough, I guess.

I think I’m so fucked up emotionally and intellectually. I’m doing things aimlessly now. What do I want? I don’t know myself. I don’t see the need to live now cos as I get a day older, I don’t remember doing anything significant or productive. Not at all.

I feel fucking empty inside. Somebody, anybody, please fill this void. 😦

I remember the face but I can’t recall the name.

Stay Alive!

September 28, 2009 Leave a comment

Leaving in a while. Gonna have breakfast with Nabs and Vee oh my fucking god I so love LJS breakfast! I’m growing fat but who cares. ^^

Lit with Mdm Chitra at nine later. God save us, God please bless me! She’s gonna scold and scream for sure. Her sarcasm’s gonna sting. I hate her reality checks. This woman is sooo dangerous! As much as I like her as a person, she eats and chews on my brain. I just can’t figure her out.

Oh well. We’ll see how it goes. *cross fingers*

When You Know Hating Doesn’t Work

September 25, 2009 Leave a comment

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